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Sunday, February 21st, 2010
12:03 pm
1. Name Angela
2. Age 17
3. Location Seattle
4. What eating disorder do you have: Had anorexia for 5 years, now i just restrict but am at a healthy weight.
-Have you been diagnosed Yes.
-How long have you had it? 5 Years of diagnosed anorexia, 2 years of a "Stable weight"
-What treatment are you currently receiving? Out Patient Cognitive Therapy for "Eating Disorders" and "Self Harm"
5. Interests? Ballet, Photography, Guitar&Piano, and friends/boyfriend.
6. What would you like to get out of this community? Somewhere to talk to people like me, and not getting judged by the pro-ana communities i used to be in for wanting to get better.
7. Anything else you'd like to add? Not really, if you have any questions you can go ahead and message me :3

Current Mood: cold
Tuesday, February 2nd, 2010
11:51 pm
1. Name Brianna
2. Age 25
3. Location Atlanta
4. What eating disorder do you have Restricting Anorexia
-Have you been diagnosed yes
-How long have you had it? 10 years
-What treatment are you currently receiving? OP treatment
5. Interests? singing and art
6. What would you like to get out of this community? I'd like to get more support
7. Anything else you'd like to add? If you want my contact info just ask
Wednesday, January 13th, 2010
2:54 pm
1. Name? Kimberley

2. Age? 17

3. Location? UK

4. What eating disorder do you have? Bulimia (BN)

-Have you been diagnosed? Yes

-How long have you had it? Since I was about 15, after having Anorexia (AN) Complecated? see my drepressing joural induction if you 'really' want to know.

-What treatment are you currently receiving? Outpaitients under 18's service.

5. Interests? I'd like to be able to go swimming again a feel good about myself, I like seeing my friends, and reading Jodi Picolt books etc...

6. What would you like to get out of this community? Knowing that others are trying to recover, and to help others by support gaining strenght, stop binging and gain some form of normallity and lots of future happyness.

7. Anything else you'd like to add? Im not in a great mood right now, I will be more cheerfull normally of other days, feel free to read my journal and comment, and I hope to support you to. We will get there. Even with my muddled brain right now. 

Thanks Xx 

Current Mood: sad
Saturday, January 9th, 2010
1:18 pm
support site
i have a support site you all can use http://selfhelp.yuku.com

i hope to see you all around
Tuesday, December 22nd, 2009
11:51 pm
Name? Erika
2. Age? 21
3. Location? Virginia
4. What eating disorder do you have? Bulimia/EDNOS
-Have you been diagnosed? yes
-How long have you had it? 12
-What treatment are you currently receiving? none
5. Interests? Cheerleading, Community Service my Sorority, Kids
6. What would you like to get out of this community? Support from people who are trying to recover
7. Anything else you'd like to add? I've been in treatment a couple of times and they helped but because of insurance I was never in the hospital long enough. This past time I was there for 6 weeks. I am now struggling and need tons of support.

Current Mood: anxious
Thursday, December 18th, 2008
1:14 am
Speaking Out
Hello there!

I have been living with/recovering from/relapsing into/battling through eating disorders for about 9 years now, and the climb is always uphill, with freedom and life my final goal, and reward.  When I was 16 I spent four months as an in-patient being "treated" for anorexia in a place I likened (and still do) to hell on earth.  When I was (mercifully) released and trying to pick up the pieces of my life I began assembling my journal entries and other rants and turned them into a novel, which would now --5 years later-- be considered "semi-autobiographical".  

In the new year I will be attempting to find an agent/publisher for the book, entitled I Am Fat, and as I had heard many horror stories about young writers fighting for their unmarked manuscripts I began trying to think of ways to get my book noticed.  One way I thought of was to create a website, with some background info on me, the project, and featuring some sample sections of the larger work.  My hope is that people (preferably lots of people: know anyone who might be interested?) will comment on the site, with a few words about the book or even just why stories like these need to be told.

Because they do need to be told.  The general public needs to understand more fully what living with an eating disorder is like for real people, without judgement, without hollywood glitz or media frenzy.  And people who are suffering --people like you and me-- need to know, remember and hold on to the fact that we are not alone; sadly there is a vast community out there with the same problem, and perhaps together we can find the strength and will to come back to life.  After all, if you did not on some level believe this, you would not be in this group.   

If you could take just a few minutes to read a section or two, or even just to rant on my blog about E.D's and treatment, I would be so happy to hear from you. 

The link is:  https://sites.google.com/site/iamfatonline/Home

To leave a comment, please go to the Comments section and you will be linked back to my LJ account, to have your say.  So have your say!  Share!  I will gladly listen, and with your help perhaps a publisher will catch on to my book, and this one small story will urge others to listen also!  Never stop having your say.  

Thank you for your time! 

All the best and the brightest,

Sunday, November 16th, 2008
6:01 am
 Hi everyone!
I had a livejournal years ago but am happy to be back, determined to find support on my path to recovery, and help others struggling with the same diseases/addictions/traumas. I will post tonight on my page a summary of my first step so those of you who want to can get to know me a little better. Thank you all for being here and looking forward to sharing my experiences, struggles, strengths, and hopes.
Monday, May 19th, 2008
9:50 pm
My entire family knows of my depression, panic anxiety, and bulimia nervosa issues. They were actually very supportive and very sad to know all this. My mother cried while the therapist explained it all. My brother was silent, my sister teared although she already knew, and my father was so worried and asking questions.

I am going to be going to the hospital soon as an outpatient whatever. And now they are going to be more supportive and more attentive but in a good way i think. They understand that I need to start out slow. I cried as well. I also had a kitten, Lucas, a stray baby boy i found and caught in my backyard.

Also earlier today I had a panic attack which i tried to relax myself with some yoga breathing. I went to my yoga class as well and it was wonderful i got to release a lot of tension from my body and I had a lot. it was a crazy day but in a way i also got to release a lot of the skeletons in my closet that haunted me like no other.

Wish me luck with everything because I really do hope it all ends up well and I dont want to get FAT I will be taught how to control food and to be OK with it. I still do my regular exercise in addition to yoga but I also eat unlike I was before. Although it hurts me sometimes and I feel guilty when i eat and still count the calories I hope that I will be in control of all of this.

Current Mood: bouncy
Sunday, May 18th, 2008
3:10 pm
1. Name? Daisy
2. Age? 20 on May 24th
3. Location? Boston
4. What eating disorder do you have? Bulimia Nervosa with Anorexic tendencies
-Have you been diagnosed? Yea
-How long have you had it? I have ED since i was about 13 (probably younger) but bulimia for a year
-What treatment are you currently receiving? therapy, psychiatrist, nutritionist, but I will be an outpatient in a hospital soooooon. =/
5. Interests? Writing, Reading, Painting, Animals, Vegetarianism, being nice!
6. What would you like to get out of this community? Meet some people going through the same issues as myself where we can support each other.
7. Anything else you'd like to add? No but I'm now Vegan and it is not that I am confessing to people about my eating disorder. It is now that I have come to terms with my ED and acknowledge that damn I do have a problem. I feel lonely. =(

Current Mood: morose
2:34 am
1. Name: Drake

2. Age: 18

3. Location: Michigan

4. What eating disorder do you have: Anorexia
-Have you been diagnosed: yes
-How long have you had it: since I was 16
-What treatment are you currently receiving: Right now none but I spent 7 months in an intensive rehab center

5. Interests: music, running

6. What would you like to get out of this community: to find someone who knows the struggel to be a recovering anorexic.

7. Anything else you'd like to add: Not really

Current Mood: lethargic
2:30 am
I was Only 16
  I was only 16 years old and I was in my first year of Senior High track and Feild. I was around 5'11 160 pounds, I was healthy and a very good runner. I decided I wanted to improve my mile times and I wanted to lose some weight. I decided to cut my calories down 4 hundred a day and tripeled my workouts. Within about a month I'd lost my goal of twenty pounds. But l wasn't happy with it l wanted to lose more and decided to stay on my diet a little longer l cut my calories down to 300 cals. I was working out constantly and l obsessed about weight and food. I lost 30 pounds in less than two months.I had it stuck in my head the more weight I lost the healthier I'd be. I just kept cutting it down more and more eventually I was down to 50 calories a day. My friends were not behind me at all because well l was healthy from the start. I eventually lost most of them because I only wanted to be alone with my obsession. I could tell my coaches, friends and my dad who was the only family I had were worried about me. My dad on a daily basis would say "What's Wrong?", "Are You Okay?", and " You look Dead" were repeated everyday like a broken record. He was completely oblivious to what I was going to myself. I thought he was just trying to tell me I was thin, but in my head I was screaming What are you talking about? I'm fat I'm worthless. The Thinner I got the more it seemed in the mirror I saw someone who was overweight, gross. I got down to 6 ft 120 pounds. My sole purpose in losing the weight was too become faster running but ironically my mile times were over a minute slower. My lowest point (Ironically also my lowest weight) was at one of my track meets. I was getting ready for the mile. For some reason that day my breathing seemed amazingly heavy compared to normal and my heart was beating so hard it felt like there was someonetrying to beat out of my chest my heart beats actually were painful. I walked over to the starting line my friend Dustin told me I was extremely pale I looked sick but I just blew him off. When the gun was fired to start the race, I collapsed to the ground my heart stopped beating, Congestive Heart Failure. I almost died that day. The E.R docs told my dad what had happened and what had caused it. I decided to come clean to my dad about everything, and he just told me he wasn't surprised. He checked me into a rehab center where I stayed for 7 months. That incident was two years ago. Everyday I still think about that and being in the hospital and seeing my dad worried about me like that. I wish I never did that to myself. I'm a senior in highschool and I do still run track. But I'm smart about my choices now. I'm 18 now i'm 6 ft 190 pounds I'm healthy and happy.
Saturday, January 27th, 2007
9:45 pm
1. Name?
Ana (ironically enough)
2. Age?
3. Location?
4. What eating disorder do you have?
anorexia/bulimia & binge eater
-Have you been diagnosed?
-How long have you had it?
all my life.
-What treatment are you currently receiving?
No treatment.
5. Interests?
Being able to pursue and maintain a healthy weight so that it will not interrupt my life with my future husband.
6. What would you like to get out of this community?
Support...and feedback.
7. Anything else you'd like to add?
Sunday, January 7th, 2007
9:36 pm
1. Name?
2. Age?
3. Location?
atlantic coast
4. What eating disorder do you have?
bulimarexic at times. mostly bulimic
-Have you been diagnosed?
no sir
-How long have you had it?
i've been struggling for about 2 months or so
-What treatment are you currently receiving?
none, whatsoever
5. Interests?
getting better. becoming a possible english major. becoming a victoria secret model, one day. = ]
6. What would you like to get out of this community?
support to help me get rid of this ugly habit, and friends. i'd like to stop feeling so lonesome.
7. Anything else you'd like to add?
no, but i don't want anyone to look down on me because i've looked through recent posts and i feel out of place-i haven't had this disorder for years, i haven't even been diagnosed. But i definitely have trouble with food and I'd like to gain a few friends, if any. &hearts;

thanks for understanding, guys.

Current Mood: hopeful
Tuesday, September 12th, 2006
5:39 pm
starvetolive is gone again. this time, it has been for awhile. aagain i am worried. i like talking to her. :(
Sunday, September 10th, 2006
2:21 am
1. Name: Lauren
2. Age: 24
3. Location: Pittsburgh, PA
4. What eating disorder do you have: bulimia
-Have you been diagnosed: yes
-How long have you had it: I've had EDs of some sort for about 12 years
-What treatment are you currently receiving: therapy, twice a month
5. Interests:
abuse survivors, acid reflux, acoa, adhd, affirmations, air conditioning, american sign language, animal love, animal rights, animal-free products, anorexia nervosa, anxiety, appetite, art, art therapy, arts and crafts, aspergers, autism, babies, behavioral science, blue, blue eyes, books, bulimia nervosa, butterflies, caffeine, cats, child abuse, child development, child neglect, children, clogs, coffee houses, coffee shop culture, coffee shops, collaging, comfy clothes, counseling, crafting, crafts, creativity, crying, decoupage, decoupaging, depression, developmental psychology, diet coke, eating disorder, eating disorder recovery, eating disorders, ed, ed recovery, er, eyes, feminism, frew, frew crew, green tea, growing, handmade crafts, health food, hermitting, insanity, insomnia, journal, journaling, journals, kids, laughing, law & order svu, learning, life (the cereal), lip gloss, lyrics, marines, marya hornbacher, mental health, mental health issues, mental illness, mental retardation, movies, naps, non-profits, nonsexual, nutrition, open mindedness, organic food, osteopenia, overcoming obstacles, painting, photography, procrastinating, prozac, prozac nation, psychology, ptsd, quotes, rain, raindrops, rainy days, reading, reading self help books, recovery, renfrew, renfrew center, residential treatment, scrapbooking, self-awareness, self-discovery, self-esteem, shrinks, singing, sleeping, snail mail, sober, social issues, social services, social work, society, sociology, something-fishy, special needs children, splenda, spring, stickers, stretching, struggling, tea, text messaging, texting, therapy, thunderstorms, treatment, trying to recover, usmc, vegan, veganism, vegetarian, vegetarianism, vegetarians, whole foods, whole foods market, wings, writing, youth issues, youth work
6. What would you like to get out of this community: friends, support
7. Anything else you'd like to add:... can't think of anything at the moment...
Wednesday, August 9th, 2006
1:05 pm

anyone know what happened to starvetolive? she deleted her journal, but i have no clue why. if you are reading this corrinne, please at least undelete and post that you're ok before you shut it down forever. :(

Current Mood: worried
Friday, July 28th, 2006
7:03 pm
1. Name? Rachel
2. Age? 20
3. Location? Ohio
4. What eating disorder do you have? ED-nos, i'm super restrictive and have been as long as i can recall. However, I'm not 15% underweight, though i'm getting closer
-Have you been diagnosed? Yes
-How long have you had it? I'd say seriously about 4 years
-What treatment are you currently receiving? None....
5. Interests? Music, reading, psychology
6. What would you like to get out of this community? I don't know exactly, i've relapsed hardcore lately and i'm scared as shit, however a little ambivalent about recovering... I can't find the motivation.... anywhere
7. Anything else you'd like to add? I think that about covers it...
Friday, July 21st, 2006
5:02 pm
I think I miss food.

For the past week, I have been craving cheeseburgers and stuff like that. But it's not binge-type cravings, you know? And something tells me it's okay to eat this stuff again, in moderation. But then I wonder if it's because I feel secure in that I have been keeping the weight off for awhile. I mean, will I feel any differently if I put on weight again? Probably. Interesting...

How are you all?

Current Mood: calm
Sunday, July 16th, 2006
3:03 pm
Hope everyone is doing well.

I have a question- if there's anyone here who obsessively exercises, what do you do to tell yourself it's okay if you can't exercise after every meal? I'm doing much better with this, but I feel extremely guilty when I can't exercise after dinner. Any ideas?

Current Mood: curious
Thursday, June 22nd, 2006
12:46 pm
Hey people,

So I've lost all of m binge weight from the past year or so. I'm not teeny tiny but I am only slightly underweight. I think I can stay at this size though and be okay. I want to maintain this. I feel healthy and not sick, and I don't feel bloated or gross. I am worried though; I keep waiting for the other shoe to drop. I'm wondering if it's okay to be happy about this or not. And what I am I happy about? The weight loss or the fact that I'm not restricting nearly as much as I ever have?
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