I am going to be going to the hospital soon as an outpatient whatever. And now they are going to be more supportive and more attentive but in a good way i think. They understand that I need to start out slow. I cried as well. I also had a kitten, Lucas, a stray baby boy i found and caught in my backyard.
Also earlier today I had a panic attack which i tried to relax myself with some yoga breathing. I went to my yoga class as well and it was wonderful i got to release a lot of tension from my body and I had a lot. it was a crazy day but in a way i also got to release a lot of the skeletons in my closet that haunted me like no other.
Wish me luck with everything because I really do hope it all ends up well and I dont want to get FAT I will be taught how to control food and to be OK with it. I still do my regular exercise in addition to yoga but I also eat unlike I was before. Although it hurts me sometimes and I feel guilty when i eat and still count the calories I hope that I will be in control of all of this.